Amityville Expressions

I’m stressed  The month of May has just begun One thing after the next thing is flung into the mix I don’t have time to dwell, only to progress I have to assess each step  The overdramatic feeling of everything being ruined has long passed The next chapter is coming, and coming fast The past feel so far, and the future too near  I’m not ready, I fear School hasn’t prepared me well enough to go from teen to young adult in the course of 2 months  I feel like a lamb to slaughter, unprepared and unaware The best year has turned into our worst year  I’m questioning if where I’m going is right  Despite never having doubts before  Cold feet, and sweaty palms  These qualms are heavier than imagined These qualms make my brain overactive when I’m suppose to be inactive  These qualms cause hot flashes of anxiety  These qualms make mood shoot south when dwelling too much  I would have never predicted how much I would struggle as a senior  I would have never predicted how stressed a worried I’d be

A special kind of love,  a love that you won’t find anywhere else a laughter, as soft as tears  warm like the sunshine  and as quiet as a mouse  a home away from home The aroma of Sunday dinner  fills the air and travels the block and could make the saddest souls smile A superwoman is what she is, so dependable and strong makes sure the house is nice and clean and that everyone’s belly is singing tunes Early mornings when the birds are singing, we love to get breakfast together the neighborhood bagel shop  that offers the warmest and softest bagels a hot coffee for her a warm tea for me the best part is when we sit down  watch tv and eat Broadway,  so many things to see and do  the memorial close by  shows memories that are so special and a time that changed history  Friendly neighbors to share many things with,  friendships that are like circles they seem to never end  An atmosphere that makes you feel sky high, a love you will not get anywhere else grandma’s love  grandma’s home and

Months into quarantine and my mom is still  Giving motivation for everyone at the house To be productive and finish work I ask myself these three questions everyday Will I graduate? Is it worth it to spend over 4 hours on a computer a day? Do I even have a chance to graduate? Here goes my mom to encourage me Motivate me Enlighten me Uplift me My mom is the reason why I get up every morning To 20 notifications on google classroom  And actually decide to do it It feels like I'm being bombarded all at once with the assignments. Thanks for being my supporter at all times